Believe

   Today I am leaving to go to the cities with my mom, sister, and nana. We have tickets to a women's conference, which was part of my mom's birthday present. I am looking forward to spending time with these lovely ladies in my life and being in the presence of other women, as we grow in our relationships with Christ. The past few days I have really been wrestling with what God is calling me to do. I have always had a heart for people in need or who have been through a hard experience, especially women. I can't help but want to help them and do something to ease their pain. I have heard so many tragic stories and I want to bring God's love and comfort to these hurting lives. 
   Since the beginning of the year, my proclaimed major has been women's ministry. I want to work with women who are struggling and I want to encourage them in the hope that they have. The past couple days, this desire has only been reassured in me. This past Tuesday night, there was a showing of the movie, Trade of Innocence, at my school. I attended it and was overwhelmed by what I saw. The movie is about the issue of sex-trafficking. During the whole movie, my heart was racing and my mind was filled with a million thoughts and ideas. When the movie came to the end, there was time for reflection and prayer. I was overwhelmed by the calling God was putting on my life. I knew God had had me watch this film to open my eyes to the desperate need these women have.
   I had always had this passion, but didn't know what I was going to do with it. I have had doubts if it is really what God wants me to do. I have had fears of the uncertainty of the situation and worries about what the future holds. It seems heavy and unpredictable, but after that night, God made it so clear to me. He is in control and will show me what I need to do. All I need to do is believe in Him, trust Him, and take each day one at a time. He will direct my path and put me exactly where He needs me to be. I sometimes fall into believing the lie that I could never make a difference or impact and why would God choose me? When I have these thoughts, I become doubtful of God and the power He has. Then He reminds me, with Him, anything is possible.

   We each have a calling on our lives. Sometimes we can feel very intimidated and overwhelmed by what God is asking us to do. We may feel too small or too weak, but God is bigger and stronger than any circumstance we will ever encounter. Instead of being fearful, we can trust that God will lead us on the mission He has for us. He has a purpose for putting certain passions in our hearts. He has a reason for calling us to certain situations. He wants to use us to impact and change lives. God desires to work through us and asks us to believe in Him as He shows us what we need to do.